Thursday, July 31, 2008
What are the songs that moved you in the least likely of situations?
Posted by Samantha at 1:30 PM
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Lesson for the day: If you're glad to see it go, maybe you're not ready for it.
Oh and last night I watched the episode where Joey lies to Dawson about sleeping with Pacey for the first time. I totally forgot all about it!
Posted by Samantha at 12:50 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I answer the phones and work the front counter as part of my duties for this job. So this presents two problems:
1. I do not have my own office where I can go and shut the door if I need to get some things done.
2. I have to get someone to cover the front so I can excuse myself to the restroom.
Today I'll be discussing the second issue.
People, I feel like I'm in second grade and I have to get someone's permission to go to the bathroom!!!!! OMG you guys. I cannot walk away when I have the first urge to go. And it seriously irks me. I mean really, is it necessary for me to do this. Now my boss freaks if I am not at the counter or if I can't get to the phones. It is part of my job so I'm not going to say anything, but honestly, if I need to go to the bathroom I should be able to go whenever I'd like. Instead I have to wait to see if someone is not busy. Several of the girls have offered to help out, but a couple of those who offered sometimes give me this look/sound irritated when I ask them about it. This is not like someone has said to me, let me know if I can do anything for you after someone has died. This is an every day issue, as in every day I have to go. Obviously I don't ask those who shoot the looks/make the sighs when I asked anymore. And when I do find someone I go as fast as I possibly can because I feel so bad about asking them.
Today all of that changes.
When I ask someone to come out front, I'm going to mosey out into the hall and use the public restroom and get a pop. I don't smoke disgusting ciggies, so I don't get a smoke break, which by the way is ridiculous. I don't get a break to go outside and shoot the bull. So why do people get a break to smoke and ruin their lungs? I mean all I would be doing is talking INSIDE the courthouse...and I wouldn't be ruining my lungs or anyone elses for that matter.
Okay, I'm really not going to do that, because I really do feel bad about leaving people out front. And also because I know how I do things and I like that way better than others...because I'm just that OCD. I guess I just needed a chance to complain about the john protocol for me at work.
P.S. Still need help on that layout for the blog issue.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Today we're here to get some form of education out of something as trivial as a teenage angst tv series. Well let's see what I've got. In the second season of Dawson's Creek, Joey decides that she must find herself. So she breaks things off with Dawson. Of course an episode later, she is with Jack and Dawson throws one of his all too typical temper tantrums. Only an episode before he understood Joey and her problem. Now when she has contradicted her statement this moment of understanding has passed. Initially I found myself flustered with Dawson and his impatience. But then I found myself really frustrated with Joey. Because she is a prime example of my "say it out loud" theory.
The "Say it Out Loud" Theory goes a little like this. IF you say something out loud in any public forum about how you are struggling, triumphing, or having an epiphany over then it comes back to bite you in the butt. And when I say, "Bite you in the butt". I mean, " It soon becomes a test of your life." So back to Joey, she says that she wants to find herself and needs to be alone, but only an episode later she is with Jack. This example crosses over into my life as well....
Last week I wrote about moving forward with my life. And for the most part I have. But it seems like the line, "I can no longer let people make me feel bad for...me." has begun to see how much I really mean it. In almost every situation of my life where I deal with that statement I found myself facing it this weekend. I think this happens because typically what you're dealing with is such a vulnerable spot in your life. So Satan uses that opportunity for all that it is worth.
I'll explain it like this.
Imagine yourself getting ready for some event. It is important and you want your make-up to look just right. So spending an little extra time is a must. You get ready and on the way to the event, something happens to cause for your make-up to ruin completely. And you realize that you did not pack back up make-up. The night is ruined.
Okay, so maybe the night isn't ruined. More than likely you can turn around, fix the make-up and arrive fashionable late. And no one will think anything of it. In fact, God usually takes care of these situations for you. But my point goes back to the messed up make-up. As much as we plan our lives out to be one way, they never are. As soon as I claimed to be past something, there was a kink in the plan, however big or small, to see if I really meant what I said. I don't want to sound like a whiner about this situation, because I'm not. I accept this challenge wholeheartedly because I'm one of the most competitive people out there.
This time I think I passed.
P.S. A poll if you will...Dawson vs. Pacey. Who should Joey have picked?
P.P.S. I just finished watching the episode where Pacey stays up all night watching Joey sleep.
Edit: I need a cool layout for the ole' blogerino. All the ones they offer stink. So any suggestions about where I could find someone to make a cool layout?
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Monday, July 21, 2008
And in other news....
- I'm currently in the middle of season 3 of Dawson's Creek. I forgot how good their background music was. I'm pretty sure I have been flashing back to all of my junior high memories.
- The LSAT's are two months away. I just about puke every time I seriously think about them. So my gag reflex is on overtime these days.
- Homemade ranch and El Zarape dip are two of my biggest eating obsessions these days.
- I have had very good hair days recently.
And I should be making another legit post soon. It's about Dawson's Creek.
Posted by Samantha at 12:34 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Everyone in their life has someone who tells them in their own way that they do not believe in his/her hopes and dreams. I have some of those people. And for the past 2 and a half years I have let some of those people...okay all of them...get the best of me. Well no more.
I'm tired of letting people making me feel bad for being...me.
I can no longer wait on someone to apologize for their actions.
I have to take Robert Louis Stevenson's advice, " Judge each day not by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds that you plant." ...and move on with my life. For a very long time in my life, I was like Elle and did not let others get me down. Within the last two and a half years or so that has changed and I'd like to fix that. For the past few months, slowly but surely I have taken care of the last of all the wrong doings I did...even if I don't think that I did something wrong. If people think that I have hurt them, then I have to make amends for those situations. Whether I like it or not. I am going to show the world just how valuable, I can be.
I want to move forward and I want to be happy.
Therefore, I have done the most that I can do for every situation and I must be okay with my end. If I never receive an apology, it is not on me to worry about it. Nor should I spend the rest of my life waiting for things to happen as they should. Because they won't.
During my dad's speech at our wedding reception, he spoke about how I have never been afraid to do anything. If I said I was going to do something, I did it. So I'm going to let go of the bitterness I've held onto for so long now. I plan to be the best that I can be every day. These are my goals from here on out.
- Free my heart from hatred
- Free my mind from worries.
- Live simply
- Give more.
- Expect to do great things.
I'm not your average type of girl
I'm gonna show the world
The strength in me that sometimes they can't see
I'm about to switch my style
And soon things may get wild
But I will prove that I can conquer anything
Watch Me Shine- Joanna Pacitti
So while this wasn't a typical educational post, it is the one you're gonna get. Think of it as a life lesson. We've all had our little epipanies in our lives, today just happens to be the day for one of mine.
I am going to be happy.
Posted by Samantha at 12:44 PM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
- Jury trials are finished. And of course we're swamped for the next few weeks.
- I am glad that Lauren went home on Legally Blonde: The Search for Elle Woods.
- That humility lesson, that I may or may not have mentioned to some of you is not over.
- I was asked to be part of a good friend's wedding. I am very honored.
- My life seems so boring at times. I'm ready for a bigger city.
- I am now addicted to bubble breaker on my phone.
- I cannot get enough of Sara Bareilles and Legally Blonde The Musical.
- August cannot come fast enough.
- My husband becomes a classic in less than a week!
- I get off work in 22 minutes.
Posted by Samantha at 3:12 PM
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
When I was 8 years old, I was finally introduced to music outside of oldies. I'm not kidding. For as long as I can remember the only station that my parents listened to when I was growing up was 106.1 out of Tulsa. And when I was 8, I was introduced to country. So if you ever wondered where I got my extensive knowledge of the classic rock and roll, wonder no more. My parents were and are obsessed with oldies. Probably why my iPod is loaded up with them too.
So rock on y'all. Rock on.
Posted by Samantha at 3:55 PM
Monday, July 7, 2008
I am ready to grab my keys, walk out the door and just drive.
I'm talking about the kind of day where you don't pack anything, but what you have on you. The first stop I'd make is to the spa. I wish I could sit in a sauna room and have a good cry. Sometimes, you just need one, ya know. After that, I'd have a killer seaweed massage. I would get my nails done, hair and make-up too, and then I'd go just walk around in sweats. I'd do exactly what I want. I'm tired of answering to people. I want to be answered to and vacation is the only place I think I can achieve that. I just don't want to be here where I am at this exact moment in my life. Consider this my formal notice that I am tired of this so-called humbling period in my life.
I am going through a lot right now and quite frankly, I'm tired of over-apologizing for it all. It's not my fault, in most cases it never was. IF you can't accept my apology for whatever it is, that I supposedly did, than you are not worth my time. I have spent too many sleepless nights over the things I could have done differently. I'm tired of looking back all the time because people don't have the decency to let things go.
I want to be let off the hook.
Posted by Samantha at 1:10 PM
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
- sweet tea
- sweet potatoes
- coconut creme pie
- anything with coconut "shavings" in it
- mint chocolate anything
- chocolate with nuts in it
I'm sure there are more things I find nasty. But for now, this is your educational post.
Posted by Samantha at 3:58 PM
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
A driver is stuck in a traffic jam on the interstate. Nothing is moving.Suddenly a man knocks on the window.
The driver rolls down his window and asks, "What's going on?"
"Terrorists down the road have kidnapped George W. Bush and Dick Cheney. They're asking for a $100 million ransom. Otherwise they're going to douse them with gasoline and set them on fire. We're going from car to car, taking up a collection."
The driver asks, "How much is everyone giving, on average?"
"Most people are giving about a gallon."
Now let me also say this about the emails that I get. MOST of the time, people send me the Democratic bashing emails. I read them and then delete them. I get the point, you don't agree with me about my political party affiliation, but it doens't make you better than me as some tend to think. Every once in awhile, I get an email that is a joke against the Republican party. And naturally, I pass it along to those elephant loving, gas guzzling, SUV driving people. And it never fails, every time I get response emails to the jokes that I send. Now you just read the one above and that is usually what I send. These are the responses that I received in regards to the email.
"Lame, I would rather have both of them any day as compared to obama who is the terrorist."
"That is our president and you should respect him, even if you don't agree with him."
" I didn't think that was funny."
"And just because you're upset about gas prices, doesn't mean you should point all the jokes to the president."
Seriously?! I am not kidding about anything that was sent to me because of that joke. They act as if I wrote the joke myself. But the more I thought about their responses, the madder I got. Okay this is my rant for the day. Cheney AND Bush? Are you kidding me? Talk about the pick of lesser evils. I am so far beyond glad that Bush cannot go back into office it isn’t even close to being funny. What is lame is that people send me tons of jokes bashing Democrats daily and the first time I send out a republican email in who knows when, I literally get 4 emails about it. I still don’t know who I am voting for in this year’s election. So don’t be quick to assume that because I am a committed Democrat that I will be voting for Obama this year. I base my vote on facts and research, not fear propaganda that BOTH parties are very committed to sending out against each other.
And another thing, it doesn’t make me any less American to be a Democrat either. Republicans think they wrote the book on what it means to be American. And if you're not part of their ridiculous tradition, then you're not American. And that just plumb pisses me off.
Nor does it mean that I do not respect the office of the president of the United States. And as far as the gas price comment is concerned I really do not know what to say. I get really tired of people forgetting that they are not the only ones entitled to an opinion. And furthermore, because I have one that is different from yours does not make me a bad person.
So get over yourselves, Republicans. If you're going to dish it out, you better be able to take it like the rest of us Americans. Nobody likes a whiner. And your party might do well to remember that this election year.
Posted by Samantha at 8:15 AM