I haven't decorated my house yet. I'm not entirely sure why I'm dragging my feet on the issue. Part of it is I don't have time. This isn't exactly a good argument because for the past two years I've decorated on or before Thanksgiving so that I would have time before school got super crazy. So that makes me wonder why I'm stalling out on this project.
I think the real reason is that the Christmas spirit and wonder of the holidays is currently escaping me.
This is huge because I LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas. I really do love it all. Last week, I wrote a post about looking forward to all the wonderful feelings and memories to be made.
And yet here I sit.
This year more so than the last two I really have been sad about not being able to enjoy the holiday season as soon as it hits because I have homework. And listen, I love law school, but all the hard work starts to wear on a person after while.
I daydream constantly about what I'd rather be doing and as a result don't get near what I should have done for school. I need to find the balance between enjoying the season and staying focused on the prize. I knew there would be sacrifices when it came to getting my degree, but I feel a little weary at this point.
(By the way, I hope this all makes sense. It feels like it's reading as one big hot mess.)
The other issue is that I'm not sure how I want to decorate. I want to do something different. I want it to be unique and organic and original. I want our house to look like Christmas but the way Christmas looks to us, not how it looks to the world.
I am ready to be enthralled by the wondermount of the season. But I need to stay focused too.
Anyway, that's what I've got swirling in my head this afternoon. Hope I'm not the only one with this problem.
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